The Concert By:Dr. Rod Kirk

[This was written about six years ago – it still touches my heart. Enjoy]
The feeling was overwhelming.  There were streams of tears running down my face, my heart was beating in my throat, my hands trembling; I wasn’t too sure what to make of this surge of emotion, I looked to my wife for some comfort –
but she was no better off.  Her camera was shaking and her eyes looked like
two melting icicles.  The whole time our four year old son Fraser was oblivious to our emotions.  He was unfazed by the fact that his six year old sister was
stepping to centre stage to play a solo performance of Twinkle Twinkle at
her school Christmas Concert.You see it all started a few months earlier when Emma brought her piano book to her music teacher and asked to play for her class.  Her class solo led to
a repeat performance for some of the other grade music classes.  I guess
Emma’s music teacher thought she would be able to complete the task at the
Christmas concert.  Emma was asked by her teacher perform on the xylophone
in front of the whole school and their parents.  The xylophone sat by her
beside for the next two weeks.  Every night before bedtime stories Emma
would practice one more time.  It seemed pretty routinely for her after a few
weeks.  Each time she would focus on the music sheet before her practice
session.  She was ready.
On the night of the performance, as Emma took centre stage, I noticed one
glaring oversight, no music sheet!  My nerves were already shot and my
daughter was on stage in front of everyone with no sheets of music to play
from.  As Emma took her cue from the music teacher the crowd silenced as she
struck her first note.  Emma was playing her performance from memory.  No
music, nor worries, no what ifs and no real understanding of the magnitude
of her accomplishment.  The whole gymnasium of people broke into major
ovation, she was marvellous!

I realized a few things that evening.  First, the pressure you put on
yourself often stems from your fear of failure.  Second, when you treat your
challenges in life with the attitude of a six year old child, just try hard
and don’t worry about the what if, your outcome is less important then the
process of your task.  The last thing I learned was focusing through a video
camera while tears stream down your face is a difficult task.



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